not meant to be

am still deciding which to set as profile picture. perhaps neither? mmmhmm

tired of it

in a family, it's different from how you handle your relationship problems with your bosses, your friends or some relatives.

family bonding is a lifelong thing that you need to maintain and upkeep for as long as possible. not just giving up after multiple attempts of salvaging the situation.

i have better hopes on you but...

SMLJ

alright, this picture was(claimed by joy) very atas and very 'feeling'. with due respect, my title is for this particular picture taken by her! HAHAHA! shall name this, "walk with me, fall with grace"

ahh... she wasn't posing, i believe i took this while she was browsing through her twitter's timeline.
BIG GULP!! (: (: OEI, I SAY LOOK AT BIG GULP! don't look at joy!
(whisper) seriously...(look around).... i think this book is mentally fucking joy to the extent that she's starting to be cranky and siao siao. HAHAHA! (joke)

my groin looks very weird like this. and my facial expression is like fucked up. but joy looks so cute here! not poise but cute. heh


鬼来电。

oh, caption for this? what else? #hansumface


it's been really long and i miss blogging with fun.
not an emo post
not an angst post
but something photographic and casual.

(:

aftershock

wanted to watch this months ago but havent got the time to download the torrent, so i chanced upon it while tv-hopping. was feeling really unwell as im down with flucoughandeverythingnasty.

enough said, earthquake-people died-cries&screams-the end.
nope, it's not. instead, it actually shows how the surviors carried on with their life. what happened to the handicaps? what happened to the widow? what happened to people who lost their only kin? oh well, life still goes on.

basically, it's about this mother(refer to above picture) losing her husband and her daughter(assumed) in this tangshan earthquake. she was faced with the toughest decision in her life that ignites her everlasting sorrow and eternal pain.

both her son&daughter was trapped under a concrete slab, considering the support she got during 1976, she has no choice but to choose between saving her son or daughter.

she did insist she wanted both but under the pressure of the workers, she made up her mind and chose the son.
and her son lost his arm in this earthquake.

(so, her daughter survived but she had no idea)

and so the story goes on...

anyway, i found it really touching.

son: mom, why not you find a man and get yourself a company?
mom: not that i lack of suitors, i just refused to.
son: why? you cant possibly stay a widow forever right?
mom: i'd have died if your dad hadn't pushed me away from the falling building. for a man who gave up his life for me, it's fair and rightful for me to only have him in my heart and no one else.

):

and her daughter beared hatred because she overheard her mom's decision under the slab. it's only after much of a coincidence that she met her brother and decided to visit her mom.

the part where they digged out the grave(supposingly for the daughter) and found textbooks for every semester.

son: every start of the semester, mom bought your set of textbooks too.
daughter: squat down and started crying
mom: what happened?
daughter: i hate myself for having the selfish thought! i should feel happy that my brother is alive instead of blaming you for not saving me. he's my brother too.

there are more classic lines that i teared on but these are the few that i can still remember. it sounds better in chinese because they said with their infamous accent. HEH.

anyway, i know it's a long and boring post. thank you if you are with me even till this last fullstop.

just a short one

just realised this is my first post that consist of my current hairstyle, after like what... 3 weeks? had an awesome night with the peeps by starting off with X-men. it felt so good not just because Xmen was nice but because it's been so long since i last stepped in a cinema.

i want to watch kungfu panda2!! anyone wanna watch with me? (:

possession

feelings and chemistry are all nothing but fleeting emotions. at this instant you might have fallen for anyone you assumed he/she is worth fighting for but after that minute, that feelings could have disappear even before you know it. how sublime.

learn the rules, people.

cut new short bangs. trying to be the pradaboys but failed totally.
nothing much to update as my life is more or less the same.
just that i might have lost a few friends here and there, gain an army of enemies and probably still love like i've never love before.

bye.

3 years

thanks for being there for me.
the heartfelt memories that we had in the school will be etched in my heart forever.
such a pity hua and van couldn't join us that day, therefore, this picture is incomplete.