madnesss

im left with 40 days to ord. but before i get to that, i've like 2 weeks of sailings to go through. cant believe im still toiling high and low even before my ord. whats worse is that im completely clueless about my future. lots of unknowns and complications. it's like standing on a crossroad, not knowing where to head. never felt this way before, future looking so bleak and unexciting. should i get a degree first? or look for a proper desk job? or try to venture my way out this society? well well, im trying to not think about all this and enjoy for a couple of months but what's after that few months? im still down with the same problems. it feels that i dont need advices, all i need is a direction from myself. i guess it's safe to say, self-affirmation. anyway, this blog seems to be my personal aunt agony. recording all my whines and complains. enough yakking, bye.

very well

i cant recall when was the last time i wrote something decent. like a proper entry or even a tweet without any english errors. shall not be too harsh on myself since im not going to write for a living. time flies, there i was, writing about the bittersweet in camp during bmt and yet, im now all ready to ord. i've never mention anything regarding navy in this space because i was really busy with sailings and duties. well, not like there's anything worth mentioning too. i've no idea how long my burning need to blog will end so i'll just see how it goes then.  till i write again.

2012

2011 was a fulfilling one. being a part of mohawk 09/11 intake was the best thing in life. being part of section 4, just like a family.
yesterday was our POP day, the fateful day where we tossed our jockey caps high up in the sky. before i marched out from the bay, i looked around, i realised it's time to embark on an entire new journey in our remaining months of NS as we are all going to leave BMTC. and to all my fellow platoon mates, all the best! :D

i don't mind a simple 2012. drama is the last thing i want in my life. i'm just as mundane as can be.

mistaken

i spent my x'mas eve with a bunch of excellent peeps. our section mates and i had our gifts exchange in marche. got a lovely planner from larry! too bad i don't have the pictures with me, getting it from alex soon. it's time to write out my 2012 resolutions. hah. i need to get out of being single! stop telling me how good it is to be enjoying all the freedom im getting, I DONT NEED FREEDOM! hahaha. desperately seeks for a good bashing hur?

back from the woods

finally back from outfield. what an awesome experience i'd never want to go through again. hah. what a wuss, i know.
how i wish i could spend more time with my friends and family. i love them so much and will never trade them for anything. xoxo


p/s: 4 more weeks to POP and i am so happy ah! i am from mohawk coy, mohawk company ya!

are you sure you heard me?

phew. approximately 4 more book outs to POP! wooosh. simply cant wait. but actually, it doesn't make much of a difference though. there's still a long way before ORD. ive been pondering over my career opportunities after ORD, or should i continue to pursue a degree? i mean, let's just face it, growing up isn't just about having fun. going through different phases of life, we need to make future plans and decisions that might make us regret it sooner or later. count the lucky ones if they manage to bingo their life all the way. my rate of sucess always twinkling at the single digit.

when will it be just you and me?

翻飞了往事 有时灼伤眼眸,
那伤人的台词, 现在听来轻松.
若是不曾走过, 怎么懂.


too lazy to count how many days more to POP. but i've got a bad feeling for my field camp. really bad feeling.
PTP phase is soon coming to an end, time really flies. imagine my agony before enlistment, having to spend my 20th birthday right on my enlistment date. how funny life twist you around like a fool and yet it seems to have better plans for you.
i miss dressing up, my fingertips across my hair roots, pushing up with hair wax on my hands and end it off with a spray. oh well, halloween night to USS anyone?