madnesss

im left with 40 days to ord. but before i get to that, i've like 2 weeks of sailings to go through. cant believe im still toiling high and low even before my ord. whats worse is that im completely clueless about my future. lots of unknowns and complications. it's like standing on a crossroad, not knowing where to head. never felt this way before, future looking so bleak and unexciting. should i get a degree first? or look for a proper desk job? or try to venture my way out this society? well well, im trying to not think about all this and enjoy for a couple of months but what's after that few months? im still down with the same problems. it feels that i dont need advices, all i need is a direction from myself. i guess it's safe to say, self-affirmation. anyway, this blog seems to be my personal aunt agony. recording all my whines and complains. enough yakking, bye.

very well

i cant recall when was the last time i wrote something decent. like a proper entry or even a tweet without any english errors. shall not be too harsh on myself since im not going to write for a living. time flies, there i was, writing about the bittersweet in camp during bmt and yet, im now all ready to ord. i've never mention anything regarding navy in this space because i was really busy with sailings and duties. well, not like there's anything worth mentioning too. i've no idea how long my burning need to blog will end so i'll just see how it goes then.  till i write again.